A few days ago, during the fifth day of torrential downpours in the Northeast, more than one female friend complained of a”bad hair day” in their Facebook status updates.  No wonder that hair care is a multi-billion dollar a year industry!

My hair and I have a long history.  I was born with a tumble of thick waves.  For the first ten years of my life, it was my mother’s battle to tame my hair.

For most of my childhood, her solution was to pull my hair into bunches that were like two swatting horsetails on either side of my head.  It was pure relief to release my hair from its torturous manacles before bedtime.  However, by morning it would, once again, be an unruly, tangled mass.  I would sit, calmly eating my Cocoa Puffs as my mother would wring her hands in despair.  She wondered how she could have spawned such a wild-haired little ragamuffin, so in contrast to her perfectly sleek hair and my sister’s straight and even locks.  She often compared me to the neighbor’s sheepdog, Tidy, who was anything but.

When we went to visit my grandparents, my mother would spend extra time doing battle with my hair to achieve the “Rich Girl” style.  She would pull the front locks tightly back over my crown and fasten them securely with a jumbo barrette, while the rest of my hair was left to spiral and swirl into natural waves.  I would complain bitterly after an hour.  My head literally throbbed and often moved me to tears.

In a last ditch effort to control my hair and save me from repeated anguish, my mother took me to have my hair straightened at a place recommended by my father’s cousin.  (My cursed hair came from his side of the family.) All of the operators and clientele in the dingy walk-up in the heart of Times Square were either Latina or Black.  I was delighted.  Finally, people who could relate to my hair issues!

Hours later, as we headed home, my mother cooed that I looked just like a little ballerina.  (Have you ever seen a ballerina with frizzy, wavy hair?  Her point exactly.)  Unfortunately, two months later my curls fought their way out again.  I begged my mother to bring me back to Joffrey’s, but the experience was too much.  She threw her hands up in the air, and left me to my own devices.

The ’70′s, a decade without any fashion sense, was my era of hair bliss.  I parted it in the middle and let it do its own thing. The only issue I had was when I was in a play set in the Smoky Mountains.  Being a “Method” actress, I cajoled my hair into two braids and pinned them on top of my head.  After the dress rehearsal, during the director’s notes, I took out the pins.  Much to the amusement of other cast members, my braids stuck out horizontally.  A fellow actress asked if I had wires in my hair, exclaiming that I looked just like Pippi Longstocking.  Her remark was neither a compliment nor an insult.  It was a statement of wonder and awe that my hair could simply defy gravity.

After college and living on my own, I finally had the freedom and money to experiment with hair color.  I called my friend whose father was an executive with Clairol, and was fast-tracked into their “test model” pool.  I thought I would look fetching with auburn hair, and was put into the “red room.”  On a cold snowy winter day, I let the scientists at Clairol have their way with me.  The color was not quite what I expected, but it was close.  The timing was perfect – my family was gathering in Manhattan to celebrate an occasion.  Tonight would be my relaunch.

I stepped off the crosstown bus outside my apartment feeling rejuvenated.  As I stopped to admire myself in the side mirror of a parked van,  my smug smile turned into an expression of horror.  In the direct sunlight, my hair was a bold shade of purple that only the most die-hard punk rockers sported in Picadilly Circus.

I raced upstairs and frantically called Clairol.  The perky receptionist thanked me for reporting the color change.  “You don’t understand, ” I wailed,  “I can’t go to dinner like this!”

The colorist explained that, because my hair was so thick, there wouldn’t be enough time to fix the problem immediately.  He told me of a product I could buy that would remove “most” of the color.

A half hour later I poured the precious contents of Metallix over my purple tresses and waited impatiently for the slick, slimy concoction to work its magic.  After a seemingly endless twenty minutes, I turned on the shower.  A sputtering of cold water dribbled feebly from the faucet.  I realized that, once again, I would not be gifted with hot water in my quaint turn of the century apartment.  Gritting my teeth, I turned the handle to the “tub” mode, and stuck my head under the freezing water, sudsing and scrubbing at the oily purple mass that was my hair.

Less than an hour later, dressed appropriately with my freshly-washed hair cascading down my shoulders, I greeted my family at Le Cirque.  “Your hair is pink!” my sister hissed at me.  I nodded benevolently, happy for the vast improvement.

You would think, gentle readers, that I would have learned by now to let nature have its way.  But I was determined to reinvent my mousy brown hair into something spectacular.  After my “single process” experience, I decided to try highlighting.

I booked my appointment at a local salon.  A tight rubber  perforated cap was placed over my head.  With a crochet hook, the stylist proceeded to pull out a dozen hairs at a time.  When I looked like Pinhead from “Hellraiser,” the exposed hairs were smothered in thick bleach.  The experience was far more painful (and malodorous) than the “Rich Girl” style of my youth.

Next I tried the “foils” method of highlighting.  I had no idea that the process would take hours.  When my boyfriend showed up at the salon to meet me, he was faced with a bewildered girlfriend with fifty foil packets sticking haphazardly from her head.  I believed that this would be the moment the relationship ended.  But he simply said, “Cool.  Can you wear your hair like that tonight for ‘The Dead Kennedys’ concert?”

The highlights worked for me.  I mastered the art of blow-drying and my smooth hair shimmered with sun-kissed strands.  Then, I went to California.  I was staying with an actress friend, a Hungarian-born natural blond.  She convinced me to join her for a “touch-up.”  Her hairdresser, a part time colorist / part time call girl, worked out of her home.  As Lizbet and I waited for our locks to transform, we chatted and sipped wine.  After the rinse-out, I seated myself in the chair in front of the mirror.   The reflection was not a golden-haired surfer girl but a New Yorker with albino-white locks.

No one in California noticed anything odd about my appearance.  However, when I returned to Manhattan, I felt very conspicuous, especially when an inch of dark roots gave me a zebra-like appearance.

I found the nearest salon that had a window sign proclaiming “All color services – walk-ins welcome.”  I asked to speak with the colorist.  A tall graceful black man with green eyes and sporting a tiny silver hoop in his ear looked at me compassionately.  He took both my hands in his, and led me to a seat.  “Darling,” he said, “We need to clear an entire day for you!”

Stephen worked wonders and I followed him from salon to salon for years.  Eventually, as I moved to various states, my quest would begin anew for that “someone special.”  Every time I visit a  stylist for the first time, I tell her not to try and tame my hair.  “No matter what you do, ” I explain, “it has a mind of its own and will ultimately do what it wants.” The smart ones follow the curl and the ones who don’t never see me again.  I’ve had my share of bad haircuts (like the one that made me look like a show poodle – I didn’t go out for four months) and bad color (but nothing quite as bad as my flirtation with punk rock.)

Eventually though, armed with an arsenal of products and a professional hairdryer, I have come to terms with my hair.   I acknowledge that there’s a little beast in all of us.  Mine just happens to be my hair.  Fortunately, we have learned to co-exist peacefully.

Before mega-malls, before outdoor “lifestyle” promenades, before the Internet, people used to shop ” downtown.”  During my era, there were 2 places to buy jeans, Teen Haven,” where we’d go with our mothers for neatly hemmed and pressed denim pants or Googleplex, a head-shop which sold, among other things, Landlubbers.  These low-slung, hip-hugging bell-bottom jeans perfectly accented my curvy post-pubescent shape.

A decade later Googleplex and Landlubber went the way of Huckapoo and Wayne Rogers shirts.  Designer jeans were in style: Sasson, Gloria Vanderbuilt and, of course, the jeans that made Brooke Shields famous for claiming that “nothing” came between her and her Calvins.

The next step in jean evolution was the emergence of jeans that were so tight they literally left no room for anything between you and your Georges Marciano’s, not even imagination.

When trying them on, it was standard practice to lie on the floor of the dressing room in order to zip up.  We took to shopping with our girlfriends, so they could maneuver our immobile bodies to a standing position, close the ankle zippers and slip on our stiletto shoes, to allow us to admire ourselves in the dressing room mirror.  The question then was never, “Do they fit?” but rather, “Can you breathe?”

It is unfathomable, looking back, how we managed to get ourselves into these jeans by ourselves once we bought them, or how we allowed fashion to dictate that this was the outfit of choice to go disco dancing.  We grinded, we hustled, we bumped, while silently singing, “I will survive!” which had nothing at all to do with the Gloria Gaynor song.

Twenty-five years later, I can dress myself, breathe and, yes, even dance, thanks to the miracle of cotton spandex.

But I started out to write about good genes, not good jeans.

I celebrated a birthday this week.  I don’t feel any older but, after the year I’ve had, I definitely do feel wiser.

The weird thing about getting older is, well, getting older.  Age may be a state of mind but nobody tells your body this little secret.

I am sure that my contemporaries who have children have mentally adjusted to their  age.  They witness their children’s milestones: graduating from high school, graduating from college, getting married, having children of their own.  Without children, however,  life becomes a straight road without these mile-markers. One day you look back in amazement at how far you’ve actually travelled.

Most days I feel the same as I did twenty-plus years ago but then I notice a couple of new gray hairs (I won’t say where) or that my dimples have somehow become elongated,  Each sign of physical age is a startling surprise.  No one takes me for my age and I thank good genes for that blessing.  I am in the best shape in my life, a result of the physical aspect of owning and running a restaurant.  But, at the end of the day, my right hip aches and if something falls on the floor, my husband and I look at each other, hoping the other one will bend down to pick it up.

All in all, I’d like to think that I am growing older graciously.  Our nieces and nephews see my husband and myself as hip (unless, of course, we actually use the word “hip.”)  I still revel in the fact that we get to sit at the “adult” table at holiday dinners, although I’m usually sitting at the annexed bridge table by dessert.

I still believe that you’re only as old as you feel and, most days, I feel pretty damn good.  It’s rewarding to know that I can still fit into those jeans from long ago, but it is even better to possess the common sense that comes with age that tells me not to even try.

Like many other writers, I thought it would be appropriate to focus this week’s blog on motherhood.  After a couple of false starts, I abandoned the idea.  I am not a mother, so all of my thoughts were sentimental tributes to my mother.  Being my biggest fan, she certainly would have enjoyed them, but the nostalgic recollections might leave even my gentle readers a little bored.

However, after the Hallmark Holiday (which is what I call any occasion that involves card-giving, gift-giving, flowers & dinners in a restaurant, all from which I am excluded,) I had an epiphany.  Why not have a “Non-Mother’s Day?”  Many members of our society also  share responsibilities similar to a mother.  Why can’t we have a day to elevate what we do to a Hallmark Holiday, too?  I will let you, gentle reader, be the judge.

Although my husband has never uttered the phrase, “You’re not my mother!” I am sure that many of you have heard this.  That’s my point:  we’re not your mothers, but, at times, it may be difficult to differentiate between life partner and Mom.  What do you think?

We shop for food
We decide on recipes and lovingly prepare meals that you’ll enjoy
We make sure all of the food groups are represented
We discourage you from living on hamburgers, pizza and chicken nuggets

We clean up after cooking.
We pre-rinse the dirty dishes before loading the dishwasher
We search the house for the dirty glasses and plates mysteriously hiding in the most obscure places
We empty the dishwasher and know where everything goes

We pick up the dirty laundry from wherever it’s been peeled off (the living room, the bathroom, the garage???)
We do the laundry
We know which cycles to use for the best results
We understand the use of bleach
We add fabric softener so your clothes are soft and smell nice
We surreptitiously throw out shirts with stains or the socks with holes
We fold the laundry and put it away

We clean hairbrushes and combs
We clean the bathroom mirrors of toothpaste foam
We make sure there is shampoo and soap in the shower
We are the only ones who know how to re-load a roll of toilet paper

We feed the dog
We clean out the litter box
We make the vet appointments

We schedule play-dates with others
We remember the dates of specials occasions and shop for the gifts
We make sure that there are snacks & drinks for when your friends come over to play

We listen to your excitement or your disappointment when you tell us about your day

We encourage you to keep your own space neat & tidy
We remind you to do your chores

We know when to walk away from a silly tantrum

We tuck you into bed when you’re not feeling well,  hold you close,and kiss your forehead
We know where the thermometer, band-aids and aspirin are kept
We’ll stay up all night while you sleep, just in case you need us

We love you unconditionally.

“May you never forget what is worth remembering, nor ever remember what is best forgotten”

Time and memory are masters of illusion. They consort to soften the edges of the past and, often, change it completely.

I think back to the high school reunion I attended around 10 years ago. We were a small class of less than 100, so we knew one another, even if we were not friends. However, something odd happened at that event. People who did not like each other in high school were embracing like long lost friends and happily chatting about what they had been doing for the last decade. Reunions are happy times to reconnect with the past. The beauty of a significant reunion date (10 years, 25 years) is that, by then, all of the angst we felt in high school has been relegated to some distant and foggy corner of our minds. We embrace the nostalgia of the good old days as reverently as we embrace the people we never talked to back then.

At my aforementioned reunion, a woman showed up with her husband and 2 small children in tow. She was more excited than anyone to be back. Apparently, she had no recollection that no one really liked her in high school. She didn’t fit in to any group – not the jocks or drama-ramas, the freaks or the geeks. There wasn’t anything mean or malicious about her. Like a ray of sunshine in Alaska in February, she was just…there.

However, she became a one-woman welcoming committee, rushing over to greet each new arrival, bubbling with excitement, anxious to introduce her family to all of “my old friends.”

Looking into her eyes, then looking at her beaming husband, I didn’t have the heart to brush her off. Neither did anyone else. Did “Sunshine” really believe that we were her friends in high school, or was she just trying to show her husband that she was beloved by others before he became part of her life? I don’t know, but collectively we all agreed to play along with the charade. It made her happy, it made her husband proud and, in the scheme of things, it really didn’t matter (at least until the end of the evening when she tried to, unsuccessfully, collect everyone’s email address.)

Like many people who daydream about spending lottery winnings after purchasing a ticket, after watching a time-travel movie I indulge in the fantasy of what year I would choose to return to. “Life On Mars’ induced nostalgia for 1973. I remembered it as a good year. However, when I allowed myself the time and concentration to give it serious consideration (feasibility aside) I started remembering details long forgotten. I back-pedaled away from 1973 very quickly and made sure the door was closed tightly.

I decided that I do not want to travel back in time. Just like “Sunshine,” I prefer selective memory, where everyone is my friend and good times rule. (However, gentle reader, I assure you that I am not shelving my fantasy of age reversal just yet.)

If you are one of the 20% of graduates who are celebrating a reunion this year, congratulations and have fun! Remember only what you choose to remember, and don’t let anyone remind you otherwise!

Here’s hoping that the only “school-days” angst you remember are from these DVD’s:

High school…
The Prime Of Miss Jean Brodie (1969)
American Graffiti (1973)
Carrie (1976)
Grease (1978)
Fast Times At Ridgemont High (1982)
Sixteen Candles (1984)
Back to the Future (1985)
The Breakfast Club (1985)
Ferris Bueller’s Day Off (1986)
Dead Poet’s Society (1989)
Clueless (1995)
Romy and Michele’s High School Reunion (1997)
Freaks and Geeks (The Complete Series) (1999)
Mean Girls (2004)

…and beyond:
The Graduate (1967)
Love Story (1970)
The Paper Chase (1973)
The Big Chill (1976)
Animal House (1978)

Helloooo, Ladies!

Black cohosh, passion flower and fillet of snake,
Stir in caldron and let slow bake. Add
Primrose oil, flax seed and toe of frog,
Chaste berry, valerian root and tongue of dog,
Wild yam, sarsaparilla, and blind-worm’s sting,
Gingko Biloba, Gotu kola, and owlet’s wing,
Double, double toil and trouble;
Fire burn, and caldron bubble.

I was standing in my local GNC reciting my shopping list when I suddenly had an epiphany about the witches of “Macbeth.” Were they nothing more than three friends of a certain age? Bonding together in a cave in the middle of the night desperate to create some magic potion that would work? The one concoction that would make all of those nasty symptoms vanish…the insomnia, the hot flashes, the irritability, the forgetfulness… …what was I saying?…

However, I also realized that, since at least the 16th century, (and probably since the beginning of human existence,) men have not fully understood what women experience during this time. Forget about the discomfort of waxing, the pain of childbirth. Those are only winks in time. But menopause….it seems to go on forever! Believe me, if we could get away from ourselves during this change, we would.

The great Bard himself described us this way:

What are these
So wither’d, and so wild in their attire,
That look not like the inhabitants o’ the earth,
And yet are on’t…
You should be women
And yet your beards forbid me to interpret

Well, we could say that you don’t look so hot yourself with your receding hairline or your love handles, your ear hairs or your increasing flatulence. But we love you anyway and we really are grateful that you love us too, in spite of everything.

We promise that, eventually, we’ll get through this rough patch. And we’ll love you even more for staying by our sweaty sides. Just bear with us for another couple of years. It’ll be over in a flash.

In the meantime, gentle reader, say “hi” when you see me. I’ll be the one holding the portable fan, waving a piece of paper in front of my face and gently dabbing at my forehead.

Just call me “Eve.”